Me & My Life Story

: shitakaru_pat; December 6th, 5:36

Current Mood:: tired

5/12/2009, Saturday

Dinner was extremely busy, but somehow, we managed to finish everything by 12.30am. And that time also includes our "sneaking off and eating" time. XD Things were so busy that I was called to do one Caesar Salad and one Crepe Feringgi. I voluntarily helped out with half of 2 servings of Tomato Soup as well (was that confusing?). XD

Which brings us to my FAILED attempt at trying to impress the guests whom I was making the Crepe Feringgi for. There is one part where you need to flame the pancake and orange sauce with brandy, which I thought seemed pretty easy because I can do the flaming for the Tomato Soup just fine. Little did I know, there is a method...a way...to do it for the Crepe Feringgi. I thought the flame would come out like "WHOOSH!!!", like how it always does when I do the Tomato Soup, so this is what I told the couple:

"Are you ready?"

And what happened next?

A small flame caught on. Small. No extravagant "WHOOSH!!!" And did I mention there was an extremely TINY flame?

I was so embarrassed. What was the point of me showing off if NOTHING EXTRAORDINARY HAPPENED??? Boo hoo... XD

On the other hand, I ate a lot. Had blueberry cheesecake (leftovers from Mr. Nannucci's birthday cake)...roasted and smoked beef (after Safari taught me the difference between a Queen's Cut and King's Cut)...bread...chocolates...bak chang (given to me by Keat whose chef friend gave it to him)...Lemon Sorbet with Grapefruit Juice courtesy of Mr. Nannucci (or was it Mr. Ryan?)...and more, I think? I think I've gained back in a day all the kilogrammes I lost in 2 weeks. >.<

And THIS!

My coming-of-age gift. Haha, Mr. Harie saved this wine opener for me after the Paul Jaboulet wine dinner. And it's offiically mine. :D

P/S If they can't take the workload, then they're not cut out for the hospitality industry.

Things on My Mind...

: shitakaru_pat; December 5th, 5:00

Current Mood:: sleepy

Current Music:: TiK ToK - Ke$ha

4/12/2009, Friday

Just a little something before I start. Daddy brought back one of these from work, and he eagerly showed it to me after I got home at around 2am.

The new Adamo XPS. Beautiful. Sexy. Sleek. Lightweight. Gosh...my mouth dropped open a couple of feet just looking at it. You open it by sliding your finger across a sensor, which is similar to the iPhone's lock. When the screen opens, the laptop will look like how it does in the picture. The keypad looks something like Sony's VAIO series: separated and individual keys. And with the new Windows 7, everything runs at top speed. All this for RM6000 (depending on your specs, it could amount up to RM7000 or more). Please do visit Dell's official website www.dell.com.my if you'd like to know more! :D

Now. People saw my Facebook status and got worried. Sigh. I'm thankful to everyone for their concern, because it really makes me so glad that there are people out there who will defend me if need be. Something happened last night to one of my good friends...something that made me worried sick and so angry with him that I just felt like going up to him and giving him a few good slaps to get some sense into him. On top of that, it happened late at night. I was tired from work and something like that just had to happen.

I guess...everything just came in a rush, bombarding me helter-skelter, left right top bottom and center. Everything that had been happening in my life for the past 6 months. I was sick and tired of work, of the politics, of the long hours, of the no-pay-to-trainees-concept, of the I'm-a-trainee-but-others-can-push-me-around attitude of some people. I was sick and tired of Shannon, sayang's ex-girlfriend, the culprit of all the flaming and hate messages on Facebook, who until today, still hasn't given up her hopes of breaking sayang and I apart, and is still occasionally sending me nonsense mail just to get my attention and hoping I'll reply to her. I was sick and tired of everything that's been happening in Problem No. 1.

It was a huge rush of mixed emotions...I just had to let it out somewhere. I'd have loved to blog about it last night, but I was tired and my cheek/teeth were starting to act up on me again. I took painkillers and went straight to bed.

I've got a slight headache, so I'll try to make this brief. :(

Anyway, I woke up today, and things started to look up for me. I got praised by the Outlet Manager of FG, Mr. Ryan, for being fast on the uptake and a fast learner. I got praised by my fellow colleagues Keat and Safari for being 'very good', staying back half an hour past 12am last night for helping with the breakfast turnover without being told to do so. But most of all, I was praised by Farouk, who, in my opinion, is the most experienced and professional staff in FG, for being very independent, a very fast learner, and frankly, one of the best trainees he's ever encountered in the few batches of trainees that FG has had. My day couldn't have been made any better.

I'm sorry if that last part was all about self-praise, but sometimes, one needs words of encouragement like this to keep on going. I know I need them. I felt so motivated and more eager to work after all those wonderful words by my more than wonderful colleagues. The guys, although some of them are gatai , but they're all like my big brothers and I know they'll stand up for me if anything were to happen to me (Safari and Jeeva showed me that today, haha). The girls are all nice and I can talk 'girl talk' with them (except for one, hmph).

I'm surviving. I just can't wait for the 31st of December. When everything ends...and begins.

P/S To my good friend whom I know will eventually read this sometime in the future, please, if you have something on your mind, let me know. SMS, Facebook message, e-mail, you have all of my contact addresses. I'm always here for you, even if I can't always reply to your messages straight away. You know you can confide anything in me, and you said so yourself. Please let me know how you feel. OK?

P/P/S Farouk was right. I'm getting addicted to tableside flambes now. I did a Tomato Soup yesterday and today, and I was actually frustrated that I was unable to do Caesar Salad as well. >.< Oh well...at least I finally got some formal training to do the Crepe Feringgi. And it's brandy and orange sauce. Finally know the name of the dessert and the name of the sauce lolz. Though personally, I wouldn't recommend this. Go for the Chocolate Volcano instead. Instant OOMPH~!!! :D

Just Dropping By! :D

: shitakaru_pat; December 3rd, 4:01

Current Mood:: calm

2/12/2009, Wednesday

Well! I'm feeling all right now, after bouts of headache and cheek/tooth pains from 2 days ago. Even the doctor couldn't determine the cause of the cheek/tooth pains...he just gave me painkillers. It's a pain that's very hard to describe, and this isn't the first time it's happened. The pain will start at my cheek area, then it'll spread to my teeth, and that's where it starts to get annoying and really hurt. Everytime I jump, hit my mouth area or make any sudden movements, my teeth will start hurting. It's not hurting as much anymore, but I'm keeping an eye on it.

I'm trying not to think negative thoughts about it because...well...I did read a true story about how a little girl complained about pain in her head whenever her dad gave her a hairwash, and it turned out she had brain tumour. O.O!!! Don't know why, but I never forgot that story (it was from Reader's Digest, if my memory serves me well). If the pain gets any more serious than this and if it keeps recurring, then off to the dentist I go. If that doesn't work, then... *punches self* NO NEGATIVITY AT THIS HOUR!!!

So after 2 days of (probably unnecessary MC) and one off day, I'll be back to work in approximately 13 hours. It's already December, people. I almost can't believe it. I have only one month of training left, so my countdown can begin very soon. I'm starting to get so tired of it all. I just don't feel like going to work anymore. I know it's going to feel like this when I do start work, but hey, you can't blame me. We're being worked like dogs, we're not appreciated, we get pushed around, and MOST OF ALL, we DON'T GET PAID A SINGLE CENT. And sometimes, I feel like we trainees work harder than the permanents. No offence meant though. Sigh...I wish December will pass a little faster...2010 will be a brand new year, with new beginnings, new friendships, and new experiences. :)

Anywaysss...went to Gurney with my sayang to catch New Moon today. :D

Romance romance romance! That's all this show is about...but I'm not complaining. Edward actually doesn't get much screentime here...it's more focused on...

The new and improved Jacob Black, who unfortunately, lost in the game of love and war from the very beginning. I like him because he's such a nice and down-to-earth guy, but Bella was always for Edward. Poor Jacob never stood a chance. :( But what I do know for sure...all the girls in Cinema 2 (yeah, the BIG ONE) gasped in surprise and relish when Jacob took off his shirt in his FIRST (note the numbering) shirtless scene. And I can embarassingly admit I was one of those girls. XD Sayang on the other hand, was busy counting the number of 'packs' Jacob had...and he counted eight. E-I-G-H-T. :O

The movie was actually OK, but since I never read any of the novels, I don't know if it differs from the books much. Don't want to create spoilers for anyone, so go and watch it! I'll just warn you about the ending though...it'll leave you all "Ack! What~?!?!?!?!". Trust me. :D

Oh, and the annual Christmas tree is already up at Gurney too! I remembered to bring my camera this time, hehe. It reminds me of Christmas last year though...and yet again, it leaves me gaping in awe at how fast time flies. Refresher course anyone? :)

23 December 2008. The day where I had one of the wackiest reunions with the usual gang comprising Becky Ah Mah aka GOT, Khai Ying Ah Mah aka POF, Hui Mei, Ju Yi and Irene darling. Also the day where they officially met my sayang for the first time, and then proceeded to record us kissing in a deserted alleyway near a toilet. I ought to let you know it was FORCED. =.=" Brrr, frightening memories lolz! Now for the COMPARISONS!!! >.<

Taken 23 December 2008.

Taken 2 December 2009.

Gosh...now haven't I changed much! Sayang's still the same adorable him though. XD In the span of just one year, I've gone through so much...so much that it's near impossible to list down everything...I started work (with no pay, can't make that clear enough! >.<), lost so much weight because of the hard work, got bombarded and insulted because people didn't like the way I look, had more ups and downs with my love, family issues...but the result of all that? I got more confident. More strong to face all those hurdles in my way. More clear about what I want in my life. More ferocious to those who dislike me (heh!). More and more in love with my boyfriend.

So for the remaining 29 days of December and for the year 2009, I shall live it to the fullest!!! C'est la vie! :)

P/S Taylor Lautner aka Jacob Black is just HOT. >.<

P/P/S Blocked, reported, deleted and ignored. That's the way it will be from now on. Ignoring her mindless messages is the way to go. Jealousy can kill a person. I love him, and he loves me. End of story. She didn't get it because she CHEATED and she PLAYED THEM OUT. What does she expect in return, kisses, cuddles and a bed of roses? She can dream on, because she is getting nothing.

Am I Beginning to Change...?

: shitakaru_pat; November 25th, 23:23

Current Mood:: cheerful

Current Music:: Future Love - Kristinia DeBarge

Bought this pair of wedges (albeit not very high) for RM53.90 at Shoepoint today. I'M IN LOVE WITH IT OMG. XD I was supposed to be looking for that new pair of formal heels I mentioned in my previous previous post, but I couldn't find any that was suitable. All the formal heels Gurney had to offer were all:

1. Too expensive
2. Had pointed fronts like the one I'm currently suffering in
3. Too old-fashioned looking
4. Had no grip on the undersides
5. Had humongously chunky heels

Shall be going to Prangin on Friday after work to check out the shoes there together with my baby, hehe. ♥ Thank goodness Farouk doesn't work morning shifts haha...he'd give me that killer stare and just look at my flats. Scary. >.< I don't like going to Prangin, but what choice do I have? Sayang said he can check out prices for the PSP there too, so there, we have a purpose to go there after all.

But back to the title of my post.

AM I BEGINNING TO CHANGE INTO A WOMAN??? (What a question to ask hahaha...)

From a lover of this:

Looks good, eh? XD

To this:

Sweeeeeeeeeeet... >.<

Mummy is going to be SO happy, hehe. :)

P/S I love you sayang, for going shopping with me before your rehearsal. I always have fun shopping with you. Don't forget our date on Friday! Love you always baby. ♥

3-Way Flambe!

: shitakaru_pat; November 25th, 4:22

Current Mood:: chipper

Current Music:: Fly With Me - Jonas Brothers

I forgot to mention that in Feringgi Grill, trainees are expected to be able to do 3 tableside flambe dishes: FG's famous Caesar Salad and Tomato Soup, as well as a dessert which I'm not very sure of the name, but it's got crepes, mangoes and vanilla ice-cream in it.

The Caesar Salad and the Tomato Soup were formally taught to me by Kenillius aka Ken (who has happily left us temporarily for training in China), together with my buddy Nazri as co-teacher, Specially as the cameraman / videoman, and Ignatius as the spectator and food eater. :D The mango crepe dessert however... was what Nazri termed ajaran sesat because I learnt it by watching Specially do it in front of a table of 10 foreigners. And yes, I was making it too. >.<

I did my first tableside flambe of Caesar Salad 2 days ago. Ingredients include Romaine lettuce, garlic, shallots, anchovies, French mustard, parmesan cheese, egg yolk, extra virgin olive oil, Worcestershire sauce, Tabasco, black pepper, beef bacon and croutons. I just realised that's a lot of ingredients. :O To make FG's famous Caesar Salad, it's just a case of mixing, mashing and tossing. My debut flambe was a success. XD

My second tableside flambe was the one deemed ajaran sesat. No one had taught me how to do the mango crepe dessert, so I was like "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" when Specially asked me to do it together with him for a VIP table of 10 foreigners today (24/11/09). Heck, my knowledge of this dessert is so limited that I don't even know what sauce we used... all I know is that there's butter, crepes, some sauce (which I have a strong feeling is honey), sliced mangoes and vanilla ice-cream. The "best" part about the cooking process is THIS:

Fascinating, isn't it? Good news for a person like me who has a fear of fire. XD Thank goodness Specially reminded me to take a few steps back when flaming the cooking pan... my hair would've gotten singed otherwise. The sauce was a bit messy because after pouring it all on top of the crepes which were frying in the pan, everything got all soggy and wet, so scooping the crepes out on to plates proved to be a challenge. Sauce was dripping everywhere, and the crepes were breaking up. :( Overall, this mango crepe dessert isn't all that hard... I just need some formal training. And I need to know the name of that darn sauce. :D

My last tableside flambe of Tomato Soup was also done today, immediately after the mango crepe dessert. They couldn't even give me a breather haha! I'd almost completely forgotten how to do it since my training last week, so Nazri gave me a quick refresher course. Ingredients include herb butter, shallots, chopped button mushrooms, chopped tomatoes, chopped parsley, gin, tarragon cream and frozen precooked tomato soup.

Managed to find this off Google Images haha. It's the exact preparation for the Tomato Soup. The frozen precooked tomato soup is what you see at the far right in the silver bowl. Kinda looks like a bun. :D

This requires flaming the pan as well, so lucky me, I get to conquer my fear of fire. :) I enjoyed putting the tarragon cream as the dressing for the soup. You can create your own designs. And another successful tableside flambe!

I can't believe I'm turning into a flambe chef when the most I can do is boil water using an electric kettle. >.<

Wednesday Wednesday WEDNESDAY!!!

: shitakaru_pat; November 24th, 4:29

Current Mood:: tired

Sorry, but I seriously cannot wait for Wednesday, because:

WEDNESDAY = OFF DAY!!!

According to Farouk, I can't wear my flats because it doesn't look very nice, so, I had to make do with the pair of pointed black heels that I've been wearing since college. 3 inches, I think? Pointed heels, lots of walking around and tripping on the slippery kitchen floor is not doing any good to my feet. My soles are all swollen and it hurts when I walk barefooted now. I need a new pair of heels. :(

Anyway...did I mention that I'm now working at Feringgi Grill? Yeah, that famous fine dining restaurant at Rasa Sayang. It's SO. MUCH. EASIER. compared to working at SMC. There's less work to be done, but more attention to detail, and lots of procedures to follow. Fortunately, I think I'm doing pretty OK there, considering I've only been working there for about a few days, and during dinner at that. However, unfortunately, working afternoon shifts can be a tad bit difficult at times because the shift ends at 12am. Today was worse because we had a Paul Jaboulet 4-course wine dinner. Different wines served to compliment each of the 4 courses. Guests left at 12am. Staff stayed back until 2am to finish setting up the restaurant for breakfast.

Shit, my feet are killing me.

The staff at FG are all super nice people...and are they CRAZY!!! We took a lot of pictures (heck, I've barely even worked there for a week and I already have so many photos with the staff), but thanks to a certain someone named Specially (don't believe it's his real name, check his IC haha), I am still awaiting the photos because most of it were taken using his camera. Ah~~~ fun times, fun times...

I did enjoy my day off (actually, I was on MC hahaha) with Mei and Sherine. Haven't seen Mei for quite some time, and Sherine...it's like she disappeared from the face of the earth lolz! Had a great time catching up with them!

We bumped into Yee Mei, so we didn't waste any time in grabbing a photo with our old friend from primary school! XD

It's almost 4.30am and I NEED TO SLEEP. And I wonder why I'm even awake in the first place. :D

Just 3 Simple Words

: shitakaru_pat; November 16th, 2:08

Current Mood:: content

Current Music:: It's You - Super Junior

I LOVE YOU.

5 more days...and I can't wait. :)

You will never realise how much your sacrifices mean to me.

Haha...I smile just thinking about you now.

Will be missing you for the next week.

I LOVE YOU.

Heh...will never get tired of saying it.

♥

Make up your mind, girl!!!

: shitakaru_pat; November 4th, 21:25

Current Mood:: contemplative

I can't decide lahhhhhh.

Should I go for the Halloween Bloodbath event this Friday after work? Or should I stay at home and be a good girl and watch TV?

I can't make up my mind because...

1. If I go, I can dress up, put on some goth makeup (*GASP!!!*) and everything, but the thing is, there will be no one to accompany me. Sayang, adik, Shmay and other people will be involved in the live Left 4 Dead game, and others...well, are there any others...? You can't expect me to be wandering around KDU alone now, can you? :(

2. If I don't go, then I won't be able to play dress-up, I won't be able to see my friends whom I haven't seen in A-G-E-S, and I'll be missing out on the fun.

I've already got my costume all planned out (and oh boy, is it very, VERY cliched).

Inspiration from:

What's there not to like about the classic gothic schoolgirl look? :)

But if I want to wear an outfit like this, I have to decide and I have to make up my mind NOW.

To go or not to go...?

A Pre-Halloween Evening to Remember...

: shitakaru_pat; October 31st, 17:19

Current Mood:: content

Current Music:: This Love - Angela Aki

30/10/2009, Friday

I felt as if time passed very fast for me while I was working this morning...maybe it was because I was very eager to see a certain someone after work. ♥

Met up with my sayang after I got home and took a shower, then it was off to Gurney for our movie marathon. :D I don't know why, but I was just very happy to see my sayang. It could be because we recently had a pretty big argument, but oh well...it's over and done with. I don't want to talk about it anymore.

So yeah, we went straight to GSC and bought tickets for Michael Jackson's This Is It and The Time Traveler's Wife.

We watched This Is It first. After watching this, I just wish he didn't have to go so soon. His concert would've been big, and I mean B-I-G. :( Overall, this documentary was pretty good, but it got a little draggy and 'repetitive' at times. There were times where I found my mind wandering off somewhere, but then it got pulled back to realtime when something WOW! or AWESOME! appeared onscreen. Especially the CROTCH-GRABBING backstage scenes. XDDDDD

Not taken from This Is It, but I think EVERYONE on this entire planet would know this famous move made popular by the King of Pop himself. :D

Dinner was at Breeks before our next movie at 9.35pm. I was half-tricked by the waiter because he told me the sauce on my Dory fish wasn't spicy, when obviously, those little chunks of chilli and the taste told me otherwise. Luckily the taste of chilli wasn't all that overpowering...if not, I'd have asked for a refund. :( Sayang's Garlic Chicken Bulgolgi came out pretty tasty though. And our dessert of a Mini Chocolate Attack (or something like that) was even better, yum yum! >.< It was around this time that ADIK came along acting very lala-ish and scaring us half to death (HAHAHA!!!), and he joined us at our table for a while. He was waiting for his friend Foo Tong to finish up his gothic emo (or was it gothic lala?) clothes shopping before they headed for Jennifer's Body. Why shop for goth and lala clothes at Gurney? Prangin has all the works, and at cheaper prices too. :D Anyways, we just sat there, the 3 of us, talking and talking and talking, about certain people in Mass Comm and how the department is deteriorating in terms of student behaviour with each intake. I still find it pretty amusing how I'M not from Mass Comm, but I still manage to keep myself updated in Mass Comm 'trivia' and news, and most of my college friends are from Mass Comm, apart from H&T. :)

I just found out that this movie is based on a novel of the same name by Audrey Niffenegger (source from Wikipedia). I will not reveal much here because seriously, GO AND WATCH THIS MOVIE. Especially for those lovebirds in a relationship. I may have gotten a little bit confused at the beginning because "Why were there so many Henrys? Which timeline is this one from? What year is it? How come he knows this and she doesn't? How come SHE knows this and HE doesn't?" and many other questions were running through my head. As the story progressed, I gradually came to understand everything. Or maybe it was just understanding more than what I didn't. XD Towards the end, sayang was on the verge of tears, whilst I was actually reduced to it. And sayang thought my tears were sweat. :) Overall, a really really good show. To be honest, it was better than This Is It.

...

No insult towards Michael Jackson whatsoever. I will always love his music, his dance moves and I will always be his fan. :)

Came home and proceeded to measure our heights. Yeah...like we had nothing better to do, hahaha! Even sis came over to see what the heck we were doing :D So after struggling with the measuring tape that's used to measure the length and width of OBJECTS and not HUMANS, we concluded our latest heights:

Sayang: 5"7' (approximately 174cm). According to sayang, he grew 4cm taller since he was in high school. Now we all know why I have to tilt my head even more when I'm looking at his handsome face... >.<
Sis: 5"5' (approximately 167cm to 168cm). She's already as tall as Mummy! *ENVY*
Me: 5 feet 4 1/2 inches (approximately 166cm). So this proves that I'M THE SHORTEST IN THE FAMILY. And I'm supposed to be the older sister, pfft. >.< This also proves that I'VE STOPPED GROWING. :(

My love and I had some time alone to ourselves after sis went to sleep, so we were just on my bed, talking about everything to nothing. And when I say we were on my bed, don't start getting any weird thoughts hehe. I was sitting cross-legged and my sayang was lying on my lap, something that he loves to do because my thighs are meaty enough to function as a pillow. :) It's really moments like these, where we just sit down and talk, from cherished memories like the day we first met, to over-the-top topics such as dirty jokes, that really make me very happy. It's those times where we can let loose, unwind and relax, and just be with each other.

Loving him even more each and every single day. ♥

loves my

♥

"Tales of a Delusional Girl...and other Stories of Love" by Patrice Chan

: shitakaru_pat; October 26th, 18:34

Current Mood:: loved

Current Music:: Super Girl - Super Junior M

First of all...say a big hello to my current (but temporary) blog layout! Halloween is just around the corner, and it's bringing back loads of memories for me. You might remember this:

Or this:

Thought I'd change the layout to suit the occasion, hehe. Anyways...

Tales of a Delusional Girl. Well. The case of Lee Vnn has more or less been solved and the case is closed. Hopefully. :( Turned out the person behind the whole name-calling, ego-abusing drama was none other than...someone whom I didn't expect, but had no qualms about suspecting her as someone who would do this kind of thing. After all the hateful Facebook messages...

IT'S FINALLY OVERRRRR~!!!

And I really hope it stays that way. One last message full of foul language to her, blocked and reported her. Tales of a Delusional Girl indeed, hmph.

Had a very enjoyable evening with Mummy, her friend, sis and of course, MY SAYANG!!! ♥ Had dinner at Nippon Yataimura in Pulau Tikus...price was pretty affordable but I got ticked off that the bento was not really a real bento at all. We had to PAY for the miso soup, chawan mushi and all the stuff if you wanted it. It didn't come together with the so-called bentos. What is the point of calling them bentos then??? :(

Snuggling together with my sayang on my bean bag in the living room is really nice. ♥

And so is getting a neck, shoulder and back massage from my sayang who knows how to hit all my right spots that hurt. ♥

Loving you always baby. Missing you so much after just one day. ♥

With Love

: shitakaru_pat; October 21st, 2:18

Current Mood:: loved

Current Music:: Shichitenhakki Shijou Shugi - KOTOKO

20/10/2009, Monday

We had...

The day you asked me to become your girlfriend, exactly one and a half years ago...do you remember?

The 2 things I cherish with all my heart...do you know?

Lots and lots of laugh out loud moments...do you remember?

Uncountable arguments, fights and silent treatments...do you remember?

But most of all...

All the wonderful times we shared, full of love, affection, laughter and fun...do you remember?

A very happy ONE AND A HALF YEARS of being together, through the good and bad times...
and hopefully, for many more years to come!

Thank you for everything my darling sayang...I couldn't have asked for anyone better.

I love you.

♥

WARNING TO ALL

: shitakaru_pat; October 13th, 2:52

Current Mood:: aggravated

Current Music:: Golden Time Lover - Sukima Switch

My MSN e-mail address has been hacked.

Please don't open any e-mail messages from me until I change my email address.

Change of e-mail address will be notified to my friends through Facebook, phone, or some other electronical device. Most probably Facebook.

Thanks.

:(

And so it begins...

: shitakaru_pat; October 8th, 21:27

Current Mood:: calm

This will be brief. :D

Spice Market Cafe (or as what we staff call it, SMC), has been full of:

1. Number O.N.E on my list has got to be TIREDNESS!!! >.< For the past 2 weeks that I've been working, my shift has been mainly in the morning...which means 7am-3pm...which again means I have to wake up at 5AM in the freaking morning EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! My dark circles have been reappearing as of late, and I'm still trying to adjust my body to wake up early and sleep early. And today was the most OMG!!! moment...work started at 7am, I woke up at 6.20am. I was ready to leave my house in 10 minutes, reached the hotel in 15 (was speeding at 90km/h, which is never a good thing), breakfast in 5. Sucks, really. :(

2. Getting my hands DIRTY with sticky leftovers in wide varieties, example: soup, yoghurt, noodles, cream and etc. This isn't that bad really...not as bad as seeing the Middle Eastern people waste their food!!! You should see the state of their plates when they leave...they take SO MUCH but much of it remains untouched. It's just plain disgusting and wasteful! And it gives us staff more work to do, as we have to push all those leftovers onto one plate so it's easier to stack them all up.

3. Moving extremely fast while carrying a heavy tray laden with cups, plates and etc. It's not easy, I tell you...but I'm getting used to it. What was the point of all that training at Bon Appetit 2 semesters ago then? :D I had bad leg and body cramps the 1st week...I don't work out, remember? XD I've currently started to carry 2 plates on hand, but I'm still practicing...moving slowly for this:

It takes a lot of balancing skill, hehe. Can't afford to carry the plates one by one because each morning we serve approximately 200 to 300 pax...imagine how fast we need to do turnovers. Either we carry the plates like this, or we stack them up and carry them to the main tray, which will then be carried back to the Stewarding area.

3. Making new friends! We took a couple of shots today, but all the pictures are with Michelle and Kate. :D Most of them are from Genting Inti College...and I never knew Genting even had colleges. XD Let's see...we have Snow, Kate, Sabryn, Wei Qian, Jie Xian, Shane, Wilson...and many more trainees! As for the permanent staff, we have Mr. Nathan, Mr. Joseph, Mr. Govan, Krishnan, Prakash, Murshid, Faiz, Kuma, Ringes... and the list goes on and on and on... :)

4. Learning so many new, different and interesting things! Give me a coffee-making machine and I can make you a latte, a cappucino, an espresso, and of course, coffee! >.< Give me cutleries, napkins, table mats and cups, and I can do breakfast and lunch/dinner table settings for you. Give me a napkin and I can fold it for you. Give me clean cutleries and I can wipe them for you, the right way. XD

5. Getting FREE FOOD. Now who wouldn't want that? :D So far, I've already sneaked a couple of chocolates, marshmallows, savouries, some banana desert thing with vanilla ice-cream, a latte, another latte made specially for me by my friend who works in the In Room Dining (his version was latte with 2 packets of brown sugar and cocoa powder...yummy!), some other healthy drinks...and so on and so forth. We even get to taste COCKTAILS and MOCKTAILS! Due to a current Halloween promotion for the month of October, SMC is currently selling 2 types of mocktails and 3 types of cocktails, which are called Scary Drinks. We (as in the trainees) got a free cup of Casper (mocktail made up of vanilla ice-cream, milk and Monin Hazelnut syrup) after afternoon briefing, courtesy of my big brother Kuma! XD

That's us getting a first taste of the Scary Drinks... :)

6. And lastly, about our uniforms. Can't think of anything else, because basically, that's it. :D Yes, our uniforms...besides being more airy, pyjamas-like and comfortable, they're ugly. You should see us in person wearing it...we look like TNB workers, as how my fellow trainees so nicely put it, haha!

And there you have it! Will update more some other time...need to prepare for sleep soon, and it's only 10pm. :(

CATFIGHT

: shitakaru_pat; September 25th, 17:22

Current Mood:: infuriated

I'm currently at work, sitting in the Business Centre (which is currently undergoing some major transformation to be the new Events office), just itching to get on Facebook (no permission to view Facebook on this computer, hehe).

Why?

Well, Lee Vnn just sent me another 2 new messages...I checked my e-mail and saw the notifications.

If it's war she wants, it's war she'll get, the bloody ASSHOLE.

How I'd love to go to KDU right now and beat the living daylights out of her fucking soul.

You'll see a side of me you've never seen before.

If she wants NAME CALLING, come on then, I have a few choice words up my sleeve.

If she wants to SABOTAGE my relationship with Ben, bring it on! I'll sabotage HER relationship with Kevin.

Yeah, I'm all hyped up now.

The bloody BITCH.

ROFLMAO!!!

: shitakaru_pat; September 25th, 2:23

Current Mood:: infuriated

*drum rolls dramatically*

And I hereby announce to you...THE RETURN OF LEE VNN, PART 4!!!

Lee Vnn September 24 at 5:00pm

Yr bf n i hd a nice make out session when yr nt in college.he wanted more bt i told him i'm having kevin d,my love.he told me tht yr uglee n fat n da only thing he wnt is yr pussy k.i dare him to tell u wat he told me.bitch! N I AM DA REAL VNN.jealous?

And my long-winded reply?

Patrice Chan September 24 at 11:16am

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *coughs and wheezes* OMG! Thank you SO MUCH for making my day, you bitch! That's about one of the most RIDICULOUS things I've ever heard in my entire LIFE!!! I guess your idiotic plan to make me mad kinda BACKFIRED, didn't it, fuck YOU! It made me laugh SO HARD I think people around my neighbourhood heard me.

"Your bf and I had a nice makeout session"...Do you REALLY THINK I'M THAT S-T-U-P-I-D to believe YOU? How long have you known MY boyfriend, fucker? Let's just say Ben really DID make out with you...and you said it was NICE...hahaha...I wonder then, how YOUR LOVE K-E-V-I-N must feel about it? He isn't in Penang, is he? No wonder you can sleep around with other guys, WHORE yourself out just like any other ROADSIDE PROSTITUTE. I get it now...that's why people call you a SLUT...perhaps I should let KEVIN know...?

So WHAT if you're the real Vnn? Yeah, I DARE HIM to say that to me, IN FRONT OF YOU. Oh gosh...how I'd LOVE to meet up with you now. You know you're such a COWARD? If you're the real Vnn, WHY, tell me W-H-Y, are you using another account to send me all this repugnant RUBBISH??? Come on, tell me LEE VNN...are you too CHICKEN to use your REAL ACCOUNT? Is that the ONLY THING you're good at? Bullshitting others but too FRIGHTENED to let people know it's the REAL YOU? SCAREDY CAT!

My DEAR DEAR Lee Vnn...obviously, you know NOTHING of me OR or Ben. You're obviously J-E-A-L-O-U-S of the wonderful relationship Ben and I share...too bad then, I guess you're not getting enough from your DARLING LOVE KEVIN? It's not good to be in the spotlight too often my DEAR. I have no reason to be JEALOUS of anything, YOU WHORE. You think I don't TRUST my boyfriend? Threats, suggestions and mindless RUBBISH like this only serves to prove that:

1. You are too free and have nothing better to do.
2. You love bitching about others, making up stories to DEGRADE them and BREAK UP RELATIONSHIPS.
3. You're JEALOUS because you can't get the same thing from Kevin of what Ben gives to ME.
4. You are too much of a SCAREDY CAT to reveal your own REAL IDENTITY. Hiding behind the shadows is SO NOT COOL.
5. You know what? I could list down a WHOLE PAGE of this stuff, but seriously, when it comes down to it...

You are a freaking bimbotic load of TRASH who has NO LIFE whatsoever, whom I presume SLEEPS WITH OTHER GUYS while your boyfriend's back is turned, AND...

You're just one FUCKED UP piece of shit.

OMG...instead of GETTING MAD, I ended up LAUGHING. I guess the poor girl, erm... ran out of ideas? The nerve of her...she actually suggested that BENIGNUS CHEAH made out with her. That's got to be one of the stupidest things I've ever heard in my entire LIFE.

Some people reading this might wonder if my sayang and I have trust issues...but let me tell you something. As of now, he's currently lowering his pride and ego as a man, handcrafting something for me before I leave for Switzerland. And yes, it's something that guys don't usually do. I have no idea what it is he's making for me (but I do have some ideas haha!), but he's serious about it, he went for the practical classes and he even asked his mum for help on it. If he didn't love me enough, didn't care for me enough, I don't think he would go to such lengths to get laughed at by other guys for doing what he's doing for me right now. And yes, I do trust him. There are NO trust issues between us.

Sigh. Life is just SO MUCH more FUN with such people like her. *snorts*

The Beginning of Everything

: shitakaru_pat; September 23rd, 2:01

Current Mood:: blank

Current Music:: Kimi no Uta - Abingdon Boys School

Well. I can say that things have NOT been smooth sailing in my life lately...and it has nothing to do with work. In fact, my work is what keeps my mind off the things that have been troubling me of late.

I guess my main problem is exactly the problem which shall remain P&C until I decide the time is right to reveal everything. It is also the problem which has been causing slightly more frequent emo posts, which is something that I rarely do. Even if the time is right, I don't know if I will have the heart, courage or guts to reveal all the things that have been happening for 5 years. 5 years...can you believe that is how long I have been keeping this problem locked up inside my heart, promising not to tell anyone about it, and putting on a mask around people because of it? I think it's why I'm so good at hiding my feelings from others, so good at pretending. I just hate it. It's not easy for me to just act as if nothing is happening...in fact, everything's getting worse. I wish things didn't have to turn out this way, but in the end, I have to face the truth that's coming straight at me full force. It's inevitable, but I still have the slightest hope that it will NOT happen. Sigh...it will never stop troubling me, never stop nagging at me, never stop making me cry...but I have to be strong, strong mentally and emotionally, to face the decision that is bound to be made soon.

The second problem is a recent occurrence that I didn't have time to blog about, simply because I felt it was a waste of time. It's not affecting me because the person involved is a total PSYCHO who has nothing better to do than fuck up people's life and ruin relationships...NOT! I'd be lying to myself, sayang and everyone else if I said this wasn't affecting me in some way. Weeks ago, I received 2 private messages on Facebook from a person named Lee Vnn. I know a Vnn from college, who is sayang's junior in Mass Comm, and generally isn't very well liked by a lot of people for certain reasons. I don't know her personally so I have nothing to say against her. I have Vnn as my friend on Facebook, but she's using 'Tl Vnn' as her profile name. Opening the messages, I was shocked and appalled to find out they were HATE MAIL. She called me horrible names, 'bitch' being one of them, and she even dared accuse sayang of flirting with her and her friend! I was fuming, but being the kind and patient person that I am, I deleted the 2 messages and forgot about them. It wasn't a very good idea to let the matter rest, because not long after that, I received this from Lee Vnn again:

Hey fat asshole! How come yr so stupid n a brainless cowdung head? U know yr useless bf once flirt wid me or not?he rub his legs against mine. Go fuck him and please don't act like a hot model coz look at the mirror n just see dat yr just a fat ugly pig.

I snapped. It was RIDICULOUS, the words she was hurling at me and the things she was accusing sayang of doing. I replied a rather long retort of which I shall not post up here as it's long and there are some parts which may be confusing for readers, as I shot her back for the things she called me in the first 2 messages I had earlier deleted. After my angry reply, we heard nothing from this Lee Vnn for a very long time. Now having proof, sayang confronted the Vnn we know, but apparently, it wasn't her who has been sending me all this rubbish. Someone is using her name to sabotage my relationship with sayang, and possibly sabotage the REAL Vnn as well. I let this matter go as we heard nothing from Lee Vnn for some time...until last night, that is:

Fat bitch,u dn deserved ben k! All u do is give him trouble,hurts n pains.n yr so damn uglee! Stop making ben hurt n mess wid ur black peddongky ass! Tink yr so smart whn yr nt,fat arse!

Now this particular message from Lee Vnn made me stop and think a bit. The parts where she said "You don't deserve Ben" and "All you do is give him trouble, hurts and pains" made me scream out "FAKER!!! COMPETITOR!!!" in my head. Sayang was with me the time I received this message, and he replied back using my account but under his name. We had an argument because of something that arose, but it ended well with a very satisfactory reply by sayang to this Lee Vnn. Whoever the hell SHE is.

What I really don't understand is...all I do is good good good for people, but what do I get in return? Curses, name-calling, backstabbing and a whole load of BULLSHIT. This isn't the first time such a thing has happened, and it's not a nice feeling at all to be called such things and to be wrongly accused of things I didn't do. In the first 2 messages, she degraded me and put my self esteem at an all-time low by telling me I could not wear miniskirts because my legs were too flabby, and that miniskirts were only for people who had nice figures and shapely legs. I was so angry at this because I was thinking, "Who on earth does she think she is, ordering me what to wear?!". I am happy and contented with myself the way I am, and if I want to wear short skirts, isn't that my own business? Angry though I was, all those words really affected me...that's why I'll say it IS affecting me. Now that the matter has more or less been settled (until she DARES to make another appearance), I try not to think about it anymore, and it's working because Problem No. 1 takes up most of the space in my brain.

On a happier note, sayang and I recently celebrated our 1 year and 5 months anniversary. I won't deny the fact that arguments and disagreements between us were getting unnaturally constant and frequent over the past couple of weeks, but I am grateful and happy that as always, we managed to sort out our problems. It wasn't an easy journey to get to where we are now...we had to face so many obstacles and challenges laid out before us, one by one. So many people have asked me if sayang and I have ever argued before because we look so loving all the time, and you know why?

...That's for me to know, and for you to find out...

Hahaha! It's about always being open with our feelings for each other, being there for each other, giving and taking, and most of all, loving each other sincerely free of doubt. I absolutely HATED IT when we got into fights...but after all we've been through together, all those arguments and fights have only served to bring us closer together and our bond tighter than ever. People have come at us, trying to rip us apart, spoil the beautiful relationship we have, but they were always out of luck lolz. :)

And so, to end this absurdly long and useless rambling emotions of a post...

1. I keep on praying that Problem No. 1 will just disappear, though I know there's no hope of it ever happening. Sometimes, having that little ray of light through the clouds helps get you through the day.

2. I hope there will be no more hate mail from Lee Vnn or anyone for that matter. Whatever anyone says, I will just keep on being me as I am: PATRICE CHAN. No one can change that, not even some sick retarded girl who has time on her hands only to bitch about other people and break up relationships.

3. I love you so much Benignus Cheah...my sayang, my hubby, my baby...my one and only. May we face all upcoming challenges with strength and with guidance from God...together like we always have.

OUT.

TRY ME

: shitakaru_pat; September 18th, 12:16

Current Mood:: aggravated

What's with that LOOK you gave me?

Think I can't work, MR. I?

Well, let me tell you something...

DON'T E-V-E-R JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER.

H.E.L.P.

: shitakaru_pat; September 17th, 21:24

Current Mood:: sad

She came crying to me. I was at a loss...dumbfounded.

Couldn't he have been more supportive at a time when she needed him?

He doesn't understand anything...

Nothing to the point that he's hurting her.

It's just hard, so hard...

And even he's not around.

Sometimes, I just don't know...

..."Whose side should I take?"...

..."Whose fault was this?"...

..."Did any of this have to do with me?"...

I have been hiding this for 5 and a half years now.

I don't know if I can hide it any longer.

...

I just feel like breaking down...

...crying...

..."Why did this have to happen?!?!"...

...

I have one more day of MC.

Then it's back to work...

...with a mask, all poise, all elegance, all confidence...

...but really...

It's just a cracked and imperfect mask, fragile and breakable.

'House Arrest'

: shitakaru_pat; September 16th, 14:53

Current Mood:: sick

As of 15/9/09, I have fallen sick. Sayang took me to see the doctor last night, and I was diagnosed with fever, cough and bad flu-like symptoms. The doctor gave me 2 jabs on my BUTT, which will help speed up my recovery process. Besides the jabs, I got a wonderful array of pills, tablets and one cough mixture that I have to take...all because I got sick. :(

Lo and behold...my medicine!!! :(

Before seeing the doctor, I was feeling very cold, had a headache, my skin was super-sensitive to touch, felt nauseous, dizzy and woozy...ahh, you feel all these things when you get sick. I'm on MC until 18/9/09, because I was showing flu-like symptoms...you know, H1N1 and all...I guess this is somewhat my 'quarantine'?

P/S Getting 2 injections on my butt was...NOT a nice feeling? :(

His Dancing Continues

: shitakaru_pat; September 16th, 14:44

He lost his long battle with pancreatic cancer.

He was 57 years old.

Rest in peace, Patrick Swayze.

I will always remember Dirty Dancing and Ghost.

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